Two more finals to go.

I'm pooped. I feel so out of it, and i have so much crap to do. I'm missing things, too. I just wanna back track. That nostalgia thing bothers me all the time.

I started writing a lot again. I don't what that means, but yeah. I'm gunna miss ceramics when this semester is over. Next semester is going to be a whirlwind, to say the least. I went to Sana, my ceramics professor's house sunday. It was so fun, and she is an incredible woman with so many stories to tell.

I will be taking A LOT of pictures this summer, working on a project i have in mind...

ugh that's it. i gotta build some crap on my website.. which btw is:
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GO! LOOK!

sooo... I havnt posted a journal since like, christmas.. so it's been a while lol.

It's 1:30 in the morning I just finished watching instructional videos on how to create some CSS crap. I get it.. its actually very easy. Soooo i'll be doing that tomorrow, instead of copying and pasteing tons of code into like 50 different pages just so all the headers and shit match. duh. lol. My website should be up and running within a couple months... once it is, I may consider taking some of my stuff down from here... but I havnt decided how necessary that is yet. We shall see. I feel like sites like this that i've been a part of for so long, hold a certain nostalgia of comments, favorites, journals, friends i don't talk to anymore.. etc.. sorta like xanga. only xanga is even more so. Nonetheless, im still attachted to DA (and xanga).. although I really rarely go on myspace anymore. I'm more a facebook person.

anywho. i'm collecting crayons.. you're welcome to mail them, throw them at me or what have you... as long as I get them. They can be broken.. i'm just melting them down. (pref: blue, purple, red, black, white and pink)... yeahhh so.. that's the weird art project of the month that i'm completely wayy too excited about.

As for life.. it's swell. There's a large pile of crayons on my floor, a lot of un-did laundry, an extreemly high stack of flash cards for my art history midterm tomorrow, some unused clay and a hungry hungry turtle in my room at the moment. I'm busy, tired, usually can't sleep.. work sucks.. school is stressfull... yepp.

Spring break? gotta wait till april unlike the rest of the world.

anywho... i'm exaughsted even with my three hour nap earlier.. time to sleep even though im sure im forgetting to do somthing.

School is over. Christmas is in FOUR days... im awaiting one more grade.. went skating with jessica last night... <333.. soo fun.. havnt skated in so long and we had fun being all romantic on ice and in the snow... with hot chocolate ... lo0oove it.

soon my life will be much less chaotic. im excited for calmness. lol.

i like exisiting..... with her. lol.

yep.

oh and i got a flash for xmas from jesss!!!! soooooo ill be shootingggg a lot.

hehehehehe.

i an A- in Italian, an A in drawing and an A in photo ... so0ooo ridiculously happy about all that. goodness.

So, I went to go see my favorite spoken word poet at the bowery poetry club last night. I'm still blown away. .seeing her live was even better than watching her on youtube. Andrea Gibson. everyone go youtube her right now! ... I have never been so moved. And there was a slam after her perforance that was pretty amazing, also. Such a good night.

and my drawing class is slowly getting better, or atleast tolerable... i'm yet to come to a week where i actually want to go to that class, though. lol...

I had a tough week last week. My Aunt Suzanne passed away after being sick for a really long time... it's scary, and I will miss thanksgiving dinner, her cranberry muffins and all the other memories i have with her.

I feel better, though... and some how writing for two hours after the show last night, definitely helped.

Tired. lol. Work was insaneeelyy busy today. yep. tired.

Went to the zoo yesterday with Jessica... omg so much fun. lol. i love animals. We love animals. Snakes, bats and fishies... o my!... Seriously this bat.. omg.. HUGE. It was tiring, though, the bronx zoo is rather large, and we got cranky and tired... but we ate, recooperated, and had a good night. looove her. loooove. mmmhm. loooooooove. It's been sooo long since I felt so much for someone. It feels really good... this whole to love and be loved in return thing.

tired. dun wanna do homework... lol.

no sleep till christmas (is over)...

I am going to have the most photographed children that have ever lived... lolll. It's gunna be good times. Today at work, the first thing this little 5 year old said to me was, "Are you a girl?! you look like a boy!!!" ... lol... but he was hilarious... he kept wrestling with me and laughing his buttt off.. but he really only laughed when i told him not to smile and when i told him he was a booger head and said daddy had stinky feet.... but he was adorable and gave me a huge hug..his pictures came out great.. (i work at a photography studio in case none of that made sense lol)... i just can't wait to have kids lol. Some other boy today only laughed when you said "POOPIE!" ... lol.. and i had a girl today who was particularly attatched to the "im a little tea pot" song which worked really well to get her to pose with her hands on her hips. It'll be a new trick. Then i took pictures of these four kids who were just .. insane... lol and i got a picture of them knocking each other over and the one girl is just staring at the camera while all these boys all like pushing her over. lmao. As tired as I am, i have to admit, this is why I havn't quit yet.. i literally get tears in my eyes when i think about these kids, these families, and all the little memories. From the kids who throw blocks in my face, to the kids who kiss me and sit on my lap... its just worth the effort, and the exaughstion somtimes... i guess that's a tiny bit of what being a parent feels like. Just when you're a parent, you can't go home and sit in silence lol. Well, christmas season is quickly approaching and all the fun will be temporarilly be drained out of me.... butttt... yeah.

ok.. im done procrasinating my italian homework lol.